The Rant - My Bad Habit

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"This bad habit of yours ehn, I pray it won't kill you" majority of them told me, "Abegi, leave us" was my usual response and we laughed about it. Last year when Toke called to say "I thought you said Shina was in Warri for a conference", "Yes na, what happened?" I asked. "I just saw him here in Surulere" She said, "Haba, it can't be him, I saw him off to the airport, and I watched him leave" I said with a lot of confidence. "Hmmm, I go love oh" she said which was not new; she said it from time to time. "Okay, take a picture of him" I said to avoid making her feel like she just wasted her time informing me. "Picture ke, did I tell you I was following him up and down, I just saw he and one tall slim thing doing PDA and I made sure he didn't see me" She concluded. Speaking of the devil, your call was waiting while I talked with Toke. "Babe, let me call you back, BH is calling me" I said dismissing her, "Okay oh, just be careful, remember what happened the last time with Paul, you have to be smart honey" She said and the called ended. I called you my bad habit because you were the only thing people warned me about, you were the thing they wanted me to stop doing.

"Hello" I said as soon as I noticed you had picked the call, "how's my baby doing this afternoon?" was your response and it melted away all the doubts that was beginning to creep in. "I'm fine love, where are you?" I asked to confirm, "I just finished a session now, I'm about to start another" That wasn't the exact answer I needed, I needed a location not asking what you were doing or about to do but I decided to stop my questioning there and loved you still. I called Toke back to tell her how our conversation went "He said he just finished a session, they're about to start another, Toke I trust Shina, he won't want to do that, not after everything I've done for him" I said. "A session of what?" Toke asked, "Of what he went there for" I said. "A session of a conference ehn?" Toke said, "I guess so" I answered though I had begun to realise how ridiculous I sounded. "Babe, don't be stupid, he just finished with a love making session and was about to start another, you're here talking rubbish, what's the conference called sef, let me google it" she said. "Eagles flight" I responded still trying to take in the few words she said. "Stay on the line, let me Google it for you since you’ve decided not to use the internet as you should" She said, I could hear her hands busy. "Seen it?" I asked, "What I saw here ehn, let me send it to you, it’s too plenty to talk about, let me know what you think by then, maybe then, you'll realise that Shina is doing shina" she said.

My heart had begun to beat fast now and I was speechless at the same time though I hadn't gotten what Toke was sending. I got it in no time and realised it was an international program that took place in 1957. I called Shina immediately to ask why he lied about going for a 2016 program that already took place in 1957. "I'm sorry babe, I was going to tell you but I wanted to keep it a surprise, I was planning an engagement party for us, I just got the ring" he said. I began to blush stupidly; you had my mumu button and used it as you wished. I called Toke to share the good news "Kai, how can you be so stupid to believe that" she said, I defended you still.

You came back later that night and presented me with the most beautiful ring I had seen, maybe it wasn't but I was just blinded by the love I had for you. We made love like never before that night; I still remember how slowly you took off my clothes, kissed my body and came into me. I shared the pictures on social media and I was congratulated by all. I even called my mum, "is it that same boy?" she asked, "Yes mummy" I said, she hissed. "Mummy now..." I said to which she responded "I told you I didn't like that boy, he looks unserious, I just hope you know what you're doing because you'll be the one in it, you're too old for me to make such decisions for you, I'll only say my own as a mother".

I believed you were worth the pain, the pain of not having my mum and best friend’s support in our love. I remember giving you my life savings for an important project, not knowing it was for your wedding plans with some chic. That was why you travelled, to meet her parents. It was beginning to make sense. Thank God for the internet. It was funny when Chuks messaged me on Facebook asking what happened between us, I was a bit startled by the question. "What happened how?" I asked, "Shina just got married today and I thought the bride should have been you not some girl" he said. "Who's Shina?" I asked to be sure he was talking about my own sweet, harmless Shina, my own addiction, my bad habit, my cake biscuit, my honey pot, my world. "Shina Ojo, the one you got engaged to" he said, I was shocked so I ended the call immediately.

I buried my face in my pillow and cried for God knows how long. I used the last of my strength to call Toke. Everything just became clear to me; the scales had fallen from my eyes. "What are you doing tonight?" I asked her, trying not to sound the way I was feeling, "Errr, one party like that, Bimpe invited me but you don't like parties na" she said. "I'm coming now, help me look for something nice to wear" I said, "Are you okay babe, you've never wanted to party, what changed?" she asked. I couldn't start talking so I ended the call and headed straight to her place. How long I cried hugging her, I still don't know but she knew. She knew it was only you that could make me that emotional. She knew it was only you that I loved the way I loved you. She knew it all then and she wanted me to know. I was so stupid.

You didn't even have the nerve to say goodbye. You just left, taking all of me with you. It's fine now though, you already split with your wife and I found someone to love me even with my emptiness, I'm happy now, even happier that I wasn't the wife you split up with, I'm happy you broke my heart at the time you did, I'm happy about how I finally recovered. "Maybe Shina finally shina" Toke said. I can finally laugh.

Shina had indeed shina.

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